Im tired of saying "Goodbye"

Last Sunday morning when we were getting ready for church I had a feeling of intense sorrow hit me like a tidal wave. I urged John to call home to Minnesota only to find that his mother had just passed away. I was crushed. It was overwhelming.

During Sunday school, we found out that the viewing was Tuesday, the service was Wednesday...... I had a meltdown. God provided (as he always does) a way home.

Monday morning we caught a plane to Minnesota and spent the next several days in a whirlwind of family duties. Several hundred people attended the service! What a life my mother-in-law had. What a beautiful, wonderful, faithful life she had. She wasn't perfect but she was very loved and very blessed and will be missed terribly.

I believe that God is always in control and works all things out according to His will and His perfect plan. I trust Him.

Having said that............ I must add that I am weary. I dont want to say goodbye to anyone else that I love for a while. Its childish I know, but thats me. Im simple and sometimes very childish. I know that I'll soon have to say goodbye to someone else I love. When the time comes I will do my very best to remember that while I was praying for a miracle.... the Lord was already granting a miracle. God gave us a little more time. The hardest thing to do is pray for God's will and not my own. Today, I surrender my will.