Reflections

Someone referred to me as "old" the other day. They came up behind me and made a wisecrack and then stood there waiting for my reaction. I think I disappointed them when I laughed and said "Im old and I own it baby!"

I love being middle aged, or over the hill or whatever they call 46 these days. I would not want to be twenty years old again, or thirty something for that matter. I would not want to live any moment of my life over again, because you see, what most people dont know about me is that my entire life's journey has been completely UPHILL!!

Most people know that I am somewhat quiet in public, but the truth is Im quietly rebellious. I have had to learn every single lesson in my life the hard way. I am strong willed but I have also learned great patience.

So yeah! Im old if old means finally reaching a plateau in my life. I dont miss the uphill struggles. I dont mind the even ground one bit. Life is good and God is great!

I dont believe I will ever really get old. I fully believe that we'll be in glory long before I am able to tap into my social security benefits. You may disagree with me on that point and thats your prerogative, but I'm keeping my lamp trimmed and burning anyway.

I know I must be homesick

Lately........ all I can think about is going Home. I read about it in scripture. I dwell on it throughout the day. I imagine that I see glimpses of it in the sky as Im making pictures. I dream about it sometimes at night.

Lord, your will be done but come quickly. I long to see Your face.

Oh!! That's what that ment!

I love 'light bulb moments' concerning the Bible. I was raised in church hearing The Word preached 5 times a week by our pastor. He was a fire and brimstone Pentacostal preacher who loved God. I respected his preaching and accepted his authority as the leader of our flock. We all loved brother John.

As an adult, however, I have found (on more than one occasion) that I am confused by some meanings of some verses in the Bible. I read the scripture. I re-read the scripture. My brain goes into a dialogue with itself. I reason and argue with myself. How can it mean one thing when my whole life I have believed it to mean another based on what I was taught.........in church?

I am just so thankful to be surrounded by sound Bible teachers at this point in my life. As I read and study The Word, so much more light is being shed on the Bible's true meaning.

Now dont laugh, but I just realized that when the Bible says that "All men shall be judged" it was reffering to the lost being judged for their sins and God's children being judged to be rewarded. Rewarded?? I was taught and always thought that even tho we are saved we will still have to answer for things we have done. In Bible study I was told that when I sit in judgement I will be given my rewards!!!! I was blown away. I dont need to be rewarded!!! Just let me enter in to the kingdom, that is my reward. Just let me pitch a tent in the backyard of someone else's mansion. Let me trade each jewel in my crown for the soul of someone I cherish so that they may enter the kingdom with me. The Lord died for me. What reward could possibly mean more than that?

There is just no measure of the depth of the Father's love for us.

All who 'wonder' are not lost.

I have a very annoying habit that Im trying to get a handle on. I sit down at my computer with every intention of JUST reading email, but then a yahoo story catches my eye and I CLICK on it. It always turns out the same way....... the oneliner (bait) that they hooked me with is always the most interesting part of the story (and.... they've reeled me in!) Then its off to check the local weather (hmmm, I wonder what the weather is doing in Hawaii right now......"click") I check my bank activity (hmmm, I wonder what the stock market is doing.........."click")Then to my favorite Prophecy websight to read about Isreal, which leads me to wonder what people have written on the facebook link to it and then I check my blog and, and, and, Im left thinking..."What a waste of time that was!!!"

With a "click click here and a click click there, here a click there a click everywhere a click click" I get completely off track! Its a curse! I have a very inquisitive mind.

Am I alone here? Or does anyone else have a wondering mind?
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Lord...I pray that You help me get lost in You and all Your wonder and amazement.

Life is good but chocolate is better.

Things have calmed down considerably this past month and we are settling back into a comfortable little groove as the days get longer and warmer.... er ah.... we have a promise of warmer days ahead, I mean summer will arrive eventually!! Right??

We've made a few postive changes as a family. We're trying to eat a little better, trying to get out and move more. We joined a Tuesday night Bible Study and....(drumroll please)
We finally gave up CABLE TV! Ive been talking about it forever, but we finally pulled the plug.

John is still in withdrawals and I promised to reconnect it again in time for football season, but for now I am so grateful not to come home to a blarring television. I really detest it most of the time. Im more of a music lover. I enjoy renting a movie once in a while and I enjoy watching football (yes, I really do! ha ha) I understand the sport and I like having something to share with John, but other than that, Im good.

So.. life is good, my evenings are quiet and we are Blessed.

Pennies from Heaven

I love to reflect on time and events and observe the hand of God in so many small but significant ways. Sometimes my life is just zipping by so fast that I don't always see the blessing until I am quiet and still. It is then that I realize that He always gives me exactly what I need, rather than simply what I thought I wanted.

Im like the grain of sand that begins as an irritation in the oyster shell. The oyster continually washes over it, making it smooth and more compatible. Then it changes from this jagged, useless 'thing' into a beautifully polished pearl. Im a LONG way from being a pearl, but I am happy that God is washing over some of my rough spots and smoothing them over.

Yes........Im still here.

A good friend emailed me 2 days ago to ask me why I hadnt been blogging for nearly 3 weeks. Altho, considering Feb only had 28 days it has really only been like 2 weeks, but she does like to be dramatic. I truthfully told her... I have no answer other than I just do not feel like I have one single worth while thing to say.
So, here I sit at my computer attempting to find one interesting thing in my life to share with all of you and I have NOTHING. HA HA HA
That is all.